I love them. They weren't supposed to ... [ Finally, she stops. Finally, she tries to get a reign on her emotions. She can only be so selfish. ]

... I just ... I didn't expect it to ... to happen. I guess I knew it would, someday, but ... [ She laughs, weak and wet and sad, still crying, but her tears are finally starting to slow. ] It's going to hurt so much. Forever.

... but I want to live for them too. [ Another sob catches her breath. ] I want them to be proud of me.